So I work in health care. I’m a licensed practical nurse… but filling in hours with working in home support.
I have some lovely, sweet clients.
And some creepy clients.
And some meh, do what I need to and get out of their faces clients.
And some sad, wish I could help, they don’t really want the help so they’re just declining fast clients.
And of course I have clients who are more my favourites than others.
Today’s clients were a mixture of all of them.
My 2nd to last client – she is one of the lovely sweet clients. The kind I do a bit more than I’m supposed to for. Things like opening a bag of peppermint candies and putting them into a ziplock baggie. Not really part of my scope but I do it because it takes me about 2 mins and would take her probably 10.
And in the process of mindlessly putting them in the baggie, she says.. “Have one for your troubles”
And *pop* in my mouth the sugary sweet peppermint went.
Without. Even. Thinking.
Yeah I ate the candy.
I’m not restarting (the rules say that you have to but nope) the program. Because I’m not that much of a diehard.
I am happy to continue with one slip and carry on.
But then… the cravings for the sugar hit. I’m sitting in my house and it was a moment of GIVE ME ALL THE CANDY….
I didn’t give in. I couldn’t. Because it was one tiny candy – and I refused to give in and give up.
Later today? I went to the Christmas Craft fair. There’s this lady there who sells individual cheesecakes with a LOT of yumminess.
I said no. But OMG… I usually go to the farmer’s market SPECIFICALLY for those. For breakfast on Saturdays. And I said no.
GIVE ME ALL THE CHEESECAKE!!
Yeah that’s how I felt.
Some moments though… I feel that this is what I’m supposed to eat…
Although I know I’m just supposed to eat good clean healthy food – it’s not very convenient though… LOL
I’m going to an open mic night tonight – hanging out with some friends, listening to some good music… Currently no cravings… so that’s good.
Must drink more water though.
And here I thought I had a handle on this….