Category Archives: Depression

WTF Happend?

It’s derby season again. I’m stronger. I’m more stable.  I’m slightly more agile. I’m better at the beginning of this year than I was at the end of last year. Also, I never ever see myself from a profile. So … Continue reading

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The Mind Fuck

‘Scuse my language. But I’m stuck in a mind fuck right now. I’ve never been one of those gain, lose, gain roller coaster, yo-yo dieters . I’ve gained weight.  And stayed about that weight.  Gained a bit more weight.  Stayed … Continue reading

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Be the Person You Want to Date

Yeah I get this is my fitness blog – that it doesn’t have anything to do with *dating* per se…. but you see, the person I want to date is not me. I want to date someone who is active. … Continue reading

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In Tears Today

I’m not sure why exactly. For the record, I’ve been off my anti-depressants for a few weeks.  Entirely.  There’s all these FEELINGS that pop up.  Go figure.  Take away the emotion-controlling meds – feel shit. So yeah.  Today is an … Continue reading

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Notes to Self

… don’t sit on your ass for a month and then go back to derby.  Just keep going … don’t go back to derby for the first time in over a month and expect to be at the level you … Continue reading

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DERBYYYYY!!!! DERBYDERBYDERBYDERBY!!!

I have *missed* derby. There was a practice in Prince George at the Rolla-dome on Sunday for the fresh meat. I went with with. I wanted to see where I was at after a summer of not doing much of … Continue reading

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I Lost My Mind

According to Albert Einstein, the definition of insanity is “Doing the same thing over and over but expecting different results” Yeah.  I’ve been insane lately. I’ve reverted back to eating habits that brought me to 270lbs. I’ve reverted to exercise … Continue reading

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