Category Archives: Depression

273lbs

I haven’t seen that number in… I don’t know how long. To be fair… I weighed myself at the end of the day, on the first day of my period. To be fair… the number won’t change that much tomorrow … Continue reading

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WTF Happend?

It’s derby season again. I’m stronger. I’m more stable.  I’m slightly more agile. I’m better at the beginning of this year than I was at the end of last year. Also, I never ever see myself from a profile. So … Continue reading

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The Mind Fuck

‘Scuse my language. But I’m stuck in a mind fuck right now. I’ve never been one of those gain, lose, gain roller coaster, yo-yo dieters . I’ve gained weight.  And stayed about that weight.  Gained a bit more weight.  Stayed … Continue reading

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Be the Person You Want to Date

Yeah I get this is my fitness blog – that it doesn’t have anything to do with *dating* per se…. but you see, the person I want to date is not me. I want to date someone who is active. … Continue reading

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In Tears Today

I’m not sure why exactly. For the record, I’ve been off my anti-depressants for a few weeks.  Entirely.  There’s all these FEELINGS that pop up.  Go figure.  Take away the emotion-controlling meds – feel shit. So yeah.  Today is an … Continue reading

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Notes to Self

… don’t sit on your ass for a month and then go back to derby.  Just keep going … don’t go back to derby for the first time in over a month and expect to be at the level you … Continue reading

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DERBYYYYY!!!! DERBYDERBYDERBYDERBY!!!

I have *missed* derby. There was a practice in Prince George at the Rolla-dome on Sunday for the fresh meat. I went with with. I wanted to see where I was at after a summer of not doing much of … Continue reading

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