Living in Tomorrow

As I read back on all the “on this day” reminders on Facebook, I see a common theme.

“I need to get off my ass”

“I’m really serious this time”

“I’m following my program better this time”

“…this time…”

I realized, as I look towards the next 5 months and my wedding that’s coming up very quickly… I live in tomorrow.

I’ll do it tomorrow. I’ll have time tomorrow. I’ll make time tomorrow.  Today got too busy, I can do it tomorrow. I’ll put my plan into place tomorrow.

And then tomorrow comes.  And the mantra repeats:

I’ll do it tomorrow. I’ll have time tomorrow. I’ll make time tomorrow.  Today got too busy, I can do it tomorrow. I’ll put my plan into place tomorrow.

And before I know it…. it’s been a week.  A month. A year.  Another year.

Today’s favourite?  “I have my period and I hurt. I’ll wait until tomorrow to exercise when it doesn’t hurt so much.”  But exercise helps with the pain

Another favourite? “I’m tired. I’ll do it tomorrow when I have more energy.” But exercise increases energy and decreases fatigue.

I’m not stupid.

I’m not uneducated.

I know. I know the ways to lose weight and get fit.  I know the ways to get healthy and get slim.  I know the exercises to do to reach my goals.

But the real question is… does it hurt more to change or to stay the same?

We do the things that hurt us the least.  Or the things that give us the greatest reward.

Today I am 2 days away from leveling up to 44. Firmly in my mid-40’s. Heaviest I’ve been in my life. And unhappiest about my body shape.  And I’m getting married in 5 months.

So I need to decide.  Will it hurt me more to change my habits (eat healthier, exercise regularly) or hurt me more to stay the same.  Those pictures are forever.

These are the things I’ll be thinking about today.

About sunnyjane

On a journey of fitness, health and healing. One blog focuses primarily on health & fitness (sunnyjane.wordpress.com) and the other is about my path through widowhood (widowspath.wordpress.com) Life is a Journey. I'm learning to enjoy the ride.
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