I have *missed* derby.

There was a practice in Prince George at the Rolla-dome on Sunday for the fresh meat.

I went with with.

I wanted to see where I was at after a summer of not doing much of anything.

I wasn’t in a good place.  Not really.

Good thing I don’t have to retest again – but I’m so going to more practices so I can get my “skate legs” back under me.

I also need to get back on my program.

And detox off sugar.

Depression and stress does funny things to me.  I don’t function well – and I revert to an unhealthy way of living and an unhealthy way of eating.

It’s not good.

I’ve gained weight.

I’ve lost energy.

I am kinda done.

I was happy a year ago.  Happy-ish.   Happier.

But derby.  Derby feeds my soul.  Derby keeps me sane.  Derby gives me all those good endorphins that help me feel good.

Eating healthy does that too.

Eating a bag of candies doesn’t.

Drinking a 2L of pop doesn’t.

Scarfing down a bunch of cookies doesn’t.

I want to be happy.   I want to feel good.  I want to be energetic.

And I want to be GOOD at derby.  Not just… “ok”

Jane Bouting


About sunnyjane

On a journey of fitness, health and healing. One blog focuses primarily on health & fitness ( and the other is about my path through widowhood ( Life is a Journey. I'm learning to enjoy the ride.
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