I learned two very important lessons from tonight’s bout.
1. If I don’t go to practice – it doesn’t matter that I passed the fit test, I will not be as on my game as I would have been.
2. Just because I managed to dig deep enough to pass the fit test doesn’t mean I actually AM fit enough to play.
I kept up. I had fun. I fell on my ass. I was sent to the penalty box 2X. I fell behind. I got hit. I got hit again. I got hit again. I DIDN’T get hit because someone thought I was “too intimidating” I got hit again, this time between TWO opposing players. I had a panick attack and almost burst into tears when a team member got hurt enough to be taken away by ambulance. I saw her at the afterparty and wanted to cry again. I went to the after party and connected with someone I have a lot in common with. My body hurts. I stink like derby.
I get to do it again in three weeks.
I’ll be at every practice I can. I have a friend coming through town on a couple derby nights – but I think I’ll be ok trying to figure out how to do derby and still see him.
But I need that practice WITH the team – and need to keep my head focussed and in the game.
I can’t wait to do it again in three weeks.