Letting Go

From the time I was 12 years old, I’ve been obsessed with the number.

My mom took me to a TOPS meeting, stepped me on the scale and when the number came up at 120lbs – she freaked and thought I was overweight (I wasn’t – I was very healthy for my age & height)

The number has ruled my life.

And for the last 15+ years, the number has been significant.  The number has been frightening.  The number reached the point at which I told my husband “If I ever get that heavy – just shoot me.  Life wouldn’t be worth living”

The scale has determined my life, my mood and my choices.

Just before Christmas – Coach Michelle challenged us to toss the scale.

Tossing the Scale


Yeah. I did it.  I wasn’t really happy about it.   Its gone.  Landfilled.

But I tossed it.

Because I am more than that number.  That number will not tell anything other than the pull of gravity on my body.  That’s it.  It won’t tell me anything else.



Yesterday was weigh/measure day.   I measured.  I did not weigh.

I will not own a scale again – and I don’t know that I will ever weigh myself again.    Perhaps only on reviews.  Once every 3 months or so.

But the scale no longer rules my life.  The scale is gone.  I am focused on my health, what I’m eating and how much energy I have.  I am focused on how my clothes fit.  How far and fast I can skate.

But the number?  It doesn’t matter anymore.


About sunnyjane

On a journey of fitness, health and healing. One blog focuses primarily on health & fitness (sunnyjane.wordpress.com) and the other is about my path through widowhood (widowspath.wordpress.com) Life is a Journey. I'm learning to enjoy the ride.
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