Tonight was transformative and amazing on so many levels – its hard to figure out where to start with describing it…
I think I’ll start with the laps.
Every practice we do endurance. Every. Single. Practice. 5 minutes, skate as fast as you can and see if you can make that 27 laps.
Did I mention its 5 minutes of skating hard?
So last January at skillz testing – I think I got 23. We were supposed to get 25. I didn’t.
I took the season off, and didn’t really skate for 9 months.
So every practice we hit 5 minutes of skating… and tonight, I got 28 3/4 laps.
Oh and I got 28 3/4 laps even though I FELL on my 24th lap!!!
I have Stan Daside and Eight Mean Wheeler to thank for giving me the tips that I keep in my head while I’m skating. Because of their coaching, I am a stronger skater and I KNOW I can do this.
I am no longer worried about the endurance test. I’ve got this. I feel STRONG. I feel fucking AMAZING. On so many levels.
And then… there was the fact that I didn’t want to be there.
Derby time, and I’m crying. My kid is crying. My kitchen is a disaster. I need to have a conversation with the boyfriend who’s going on nights for the next 4 days which means I don’t get to really see him for the next 4 days.
Roxanne shows up…. and after I get the crying kid calmed down, I head to derby.
I was resisting. But Roxanne knew I needed it. Mike knew I needed it. My crying kid knew I needed it.
I forgot how much I needed it.
I forgot one basic rule…. Skate it out.
And the last thing I learned, but most certainly not the least; in fact, it may be the most important.
For 3 years, I’ve been skating with a team that does an on skate warm up. For 3 years, I’ve spent the first half to three quarters of an hour of practice in pain. For 3 years, I’d finally get to the point where my body wasn’t fighting me just as it was time to go home from practice.
But I loved derby. So I persevered.
I hurt, I pushed I kept moving.
And then I took the season off derby. And then I moved.
I joined up with derby in my new home. And they run practices differently. We do a 20 minute off skate warm up every single time.
And I whined about it. Only in my head, mind you, but I whined, none the less.
But I did it. And I did it to the best of my ability.
Tonight, with all the drama going on in my house, I missed my warm up. There was this gleeful little part of me that was bouncing up and down over missing it – I could just jump straight into skating.
And I did.
And within 5 minutes… I hurt. I hurt in all the places I hurt skating before. My back was protesting. My thighs were protesting.
And when we did the endurance test… I got a cramp in my
… the same freaking cramp that killed me on every skillz test I’d taken before.
I learned something extremely valuable tonight. I NEED that off skate warm up to skate at my best.
I can’t wait until next practice. I am SO friggen excited to be skating again. I am pumped about being the best I can be and pushing myself as hard as I can.
I love how I feel right now – I’m walking on air – flying on endorphin and accomplishment highs.
Derby rocks my socks off…. I wish I could adequately express how amazing I feel. How confident. How strong. How powerful.
What makes you feel that way?