I was going to quit.
I seriously contemplated stepping away from skating for the season and joining fresh meat again in the Fall.
WTF is WRONG with me?
I have pushed this for 2 years.
I skated while my husband was in the hospital.
I kept going until I hit my head – and I still wanted to skate.
So why on earth would I consider quitting 2 weeks from re-testing?
Why on earth would I let myself get in that headspace?
I lost out on 2 days on skates. 3 if you count that I bailed on going to Raw Meat on Saturday (I WILL be going next week!!)
I have, as far as I know, 5 potential times on skates – aside from anything I manage to do outdoors before retesting.
Plus cross training.
I can do this. I can get there. I can and WILL be playing for the Sirens this season.
But I need to consistently exercise and eat healthy – dropping some weight would help enormously.
I can do this.
I will do this. There’s nothing to stop me but myself… and I’m done with standing in my own way.