Nerves? Seriously?

I have been anxious, unhappy and stressed because I haven’t been able to skate.  I have been frustrated with the lack of on skate time.

Tonight is derby and I’ve been so excited about going… until now.

Now… I’m stressed, anxious and nervous about going to practice.

I’m scared.

Not of falling, but there’s *something* there.  Something that is trying to creep into my thoughts and trying to keep me from going.   Something that is keeping me anxious.

But… I’m going.  I’m going to skate.  I’m going to see how my body reacts.  I’m going to get back out there and get back in it.

I don’t understand why I’m scared, nervous, anxious.   However… it’s there.  And I’m going to acknowledge it, accept it, and go skating anyhow.

Derby keeps me sane.  It’s time to get back into it.

Skate it Out

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About sunnyjane

On a journey of fitness, health and healing. One blog focuses primarily on health & fitness (sunnyjane.wordpress.com) and the other is about my path through widowhood (widowspath.wordpress.com) Life is a Journey. I'm learning to enjoy the ride.
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