Trying to find my way out of depression, trying to make sense of my life, trying to do the things that will make me a better, happier, healthier person.
I want to be there for my kids.
Step one starts with what I choose to put in my body. I don’t have the energy (yet) to get out there and exercise, I haven’t been back to derby and back on skates since he died, but I can choose what to put in my body.
Step one… eating mindfully & healthily.
2 organic eggs, 1/4 onion, 1/4 orange pepper, and 1/4 cup of leftover turkey breast from dinner last night.
2 mugs of coffee (that’s going to have to change)
Oh, and a piece of peach tart that Coree brought over.
A friend posted about the invisible cancer she suffers from – depression. It gets me, too, but not to the degree it gets her… and I don’t want it to get there.
I can’t promise myself or anyone else that I will be able to maintain these changes, but this is my plan.
Right now, I feel hopeful, and energized, and almost excited about life. I miss him horribly but I can honour him the best way possible by living life as it is supposed to be lived – not hiding in my bedroom.
Today is step one.