My biggest fear when I go to practices and see all the fresh meat who are light years ahead of me (where I was, where I am) after 3 practices is that I’ll get left behind.
I get it. I’m overweight. I’m slow. It is taking me longer to get up to skillz than it *should* or *has* taken other people.
But I remember having a conversation with someone – she said she never passed her skillz test so she gave up? decided to become head NSO.
I don’t want to. I want to play. I want to hit and get hit. I want to feel the joy of stepping in front of an opposing player and sitting on them so they can’t get past me.
Something in me has changed though. A fear like this used to make me give up. If I can’t get to where I want to go – I’ll quit.
I’m not quitting. I may take longer than other people to get there – but I’ll get there. I have success each practice I show up at. I have success each time I don’t quit.
Last night I succeeded in playing “shark tank” and being one of the last 5 (both rounds) to be knocked out. I discovered I can take a hit. And I can hit hard. It was fun 😀
Now to get my agility and speed up.