They say if you fall off a horse, get up and go riding again. If you don’t, the fear of falling will keep you from ever riding again.
Right now is one of those moments where I don’t want to get back on the damned horse. It keeps bucking me off.
Proper derby stance hurts like a mofo. My back seizes, my thighs seize and if I do it for very long, I’m extremely shaky.
Skating while NOT in derby stance hurts worse because I fall. I fall on my side, I fall and twist my ankle, I fall flat on my back and hit my head hard enough to see double.
I hurt myself enough in the hour of street skating that I did that I wonder… WTF am I pushing myself for?
I could tell my partner in skating was getting frustrated with me. I keep having to stop and rest. It messes with her getting a good workout. I understand that. And then I fell and was done. Not the enjoyable skate she wanted, I’m sure. It wasn’t what I wanted either 😦
I’m going to go sit in my hottub for a while and hope that it washes away not only the aches from the falls, but the frustration and discouragement I feel.
Right now – I’m having trouble seeing the point.
Logically – I know. Emotionally though… different story.