I watch the more experienced skaters hop on their skates, and casually skate around, feet confidently crossing one over the other as they round corners.
There’s little in the way of wobbles or flailing, and they are able to build up speed and gain momentum as they circle the track.
And then I get on my skates and I’ve been struggling. I haven’t trusted my body to do what it needs to. I wobble and flail and have had a couple of REALLY hard falls.
The last couple weeks of skating – I’ve been determined. I remind myself that if I’m not faltering, I’m not improving. And I’ve been determined.
The crossovers have been ungainly, uncoordinated, and precariously close to me falling.
Tonight – it felt right. I trusted my body, I trusted the stance, and I did it. FULL ON CROSS OVERS.
Right skate on the left side of my body.
Left skate pushing off.
Don’t get me wrong – it wasn’t perfect. There was still some wobbles.
But I DID IT.
My excuse in the past has always been – I’m too big – but I now know that is BULLSHIT.
I can do them… I’ve proved it to myself.
Fuck I’m excited about this 😀