X-Weighted Challenge and the Voices in my Head

I have been a part of the X-Weighted National Challenge for the past 8 weeks.

We are 1/3 of the way through – and based on my “goal” that was assigned to me, I should have already lost 23lbs.

I’ve lost 2.

So with 18 weeks to go – the goal still registers as having 70lbs to lose.   That’s a LOT of weight…  3.8lbs a week.

It makes me wonder if its possible.  Can I actually lose 70lbs in 18 weeks?

Probably.

Will I?

I don’t know – but the little voices in my head are saying “Are you kidding me? You couldn’t do 23 lbs in the last 8, what makes you think you can do 70 in 18?”

I hate those voices.   Those are the voices that encourage me to eat when I’m stressed.   To stay home when I’m supposed to go to the gym.   Those are the voices that allow me to sabotage myself.

I started the “Body for Life” program yesterday… went and did the upper body workout.  The voices in my head tell me that its not enough, that no matter how much I exercise, I’ll fuck up later.  I’ll over eat, I’ll eat crap, I’ll sit on my couch and undo all the good I just did.  And really? How can such a specific program really make any changes in my life?

The thing is, I know it works.  I’ve done this program before. 

So I need to ignore the voices, replace them with more productive chatter in my head.  Create a mantra that I can use whenever I hear the “what’s the use” chant going off in my head.

I am worth it.  I can do this.  I WILL succeed.

I have 18 weeks left in this challenge.  Whether I lose 70lbs, 27 lbs or 7 lbs, I WILL carry on – its a success to keep moving forward. 

The voices in my head can go fuck themselves.   I’m done with them fucking with me.

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About sunnyjane

On a journey of fitness, health and healing. One blog focuses primarily on health & fitness (sunnyjane.wordpress.com) and the other is about my path through widowhood (widowspath.wordpress.com) Life is a Journey. I'm learning to enjoy the ride.
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