We all do it. We munch on handfuls of chips or popcorn while watching a movie. We go back to the buffet table over and over again.
Most of these are momentary abberations in our lives – n0t a way of life.
But one doesn’t get to over 275lbs by an aberration or two.
I got to over 275lbs by mindlessly eating ALL THE TIME.
I had a bad weekend, food wise. I over ate by about 1000 calories both Saturday and Sunday. I got no exercise in. I did, however get a very good book read today while eating way too much.
I think about how I felt last week – when I wasn’t sick and following my eating plan – compared to this weekend, when I ate like I used to. At the end of today, I felt sluggish and tired and sick and lethargic.
And when my hubby handed me a serving of the same bedtime snack my kid was having, without even thinking about it, I ate it. Didn’t even consider that I’d already eaten 1200 calories above my budget. Just ate it.
Old habits die hard.
I have no drive or desire to do anything tonight, certainly getting up tomorrow is a mental struggle at this time. I can’t imagine how I’ll have the energy to get up when my alarm goes off.
I have to go back to the beginning, it seems. Granted, I’m 9 lbs lighter than when I started, so I haven’t totally messed up my progress, but it still feels the same. Forcing myself out of bed in the morning to work out because as much as I don’t want to – I know it will feel good in the end.
Mindless eating this weekend has taken me back to the beginning…